ghosts

last night taught at cathay, my usual tuesday evenings.. and when i looked out at the gym side, where the row of treadmills are under the plasma tvs... i "saw" you. only a few weeks ago you came to meet me and did some cardio. you were wearing your usual white nike tee shirt... and the way you run... just deeply burnt into my mind. thank god it was during the relaxation portion of balance, so it wasn't as bad... i could calm myself down

then today... after my lunch time millenia walk class, went to carrefour to get groceries... again, a fleeting image of you sitting at the starbucks right outside the row of checkout counters. a few weeks ago you came and met me and waited patiently while i got some groceries and queued in line. the way you were looking down at your phone while typing smses... and the silly faces you made.

i've been quietly asking "how are you baby?" in all hope that you can somehow hear me. wondering if you are having duty today, or delivery or if there are customers that you enjoy serving...

i miss you. and i miss us.